I spent most of my first week home in my recliner. My sweet husband slept on the couch so he could be close. I would tell him to go to our bed and he would just say "you might need me" and lay down. I couldn't do anything for myself for that first week. I had four drains & I couldn't even get myself in the shower or wash easily. I'm so grateful for him and my mom. He took care of me & she handled the kids but when he had to go to work, she took right over. I have no idea how people do this without the help that I had. I'm glad I don't have much hair - I couldn't even get my arms high enough to wash it! I couldn't get myself out of the recliner! I hope I'm getting you a good idea of how helpless & useless I felt! I hurt & was like a giant baby. I compared to myself to a baby more than once when Rich was helping me tie my shoes! The drains were actually the worst part. They pulled & were so uncomfortable! Once my drains came out - I lost two at the one week mark & the other two at the two week mark - I started to improve quickly.
The month passed quickly. I still have to be propped up when I sleep & I still don't have a very good range of motion in my left arm. They removed five lymph nodes & two had cancer in them. This means radiation is a must have. The doctors also seem to be un-convinced by the bone biopsy. There seems to be nothing that the spot on my pubic bone can be aside from cancer so I will be having radiation on my pubic bone as well as my left breast & underarm. The spot on my bone is confusing to me too. It is cancer, it isn't, it is, it isn't. I've finally resigned myself to the fact that all my doctor's think it is & they are going to treat it as such. Accepting that means I accept that I have metastic breast cancer & I may never have complete remission. But that's a post for another day after radiation and more discussion with people who know more about this than I do. Either way - I'm doing fine today and I'll be fine tomorrow.
I go every Monday to see my plastic surgeon & get 60cc of fluid in my tissue expanders. I'm at around 400-450cc right now & will probably keep going until I reach 750-800cc. After I'm done with the fills I start radiation. I have to do 33 rounds of that & then I'll get to have my second breast surgery 4-6 months after that. My incisions are looking great & I think they are going to scar nicely. I'm eager to see the end result. I go back to work next week & I'm ready to move into my new normal.